it’s getting close….and i should be ready

i don’t wanna leave yet……………….

sometimes i want to keep all the happenings, stories, plans and dreams on my own….

there are people who wants to interfere even with the smallest things…

am i getting it right or wrong???

keeps bothering me especially on how i react…it’s getting bad and i don’t want it…

i miss the kids again i miss being a teacher….although it’s tiring but at the end of the day the kids still bring joy and happiness to me.

i miss hearing the words “teacher may” hay, i want to be with the kids again…can i go back to teaching even for a couple of days? i want my own kingdom where i got to feel so special and loved by my students, i want to take a 15-minute nap with them then we’ll run and dance around, hay….miss the kids so much…

so much for the missing thingy…

hay, waiting is killing me! I need to make myself busy with other things so i won’t think of it…paranoia…anxiety…boredom…am i stressed? maybe…

hay, i think i should get a sleep now…

So, what’s new?

Got the medical advise from the Canadian Embassy and I should do it as soon as possible so the Embassy can process my working visa. I have a feeling that I can travel this year and I am getting excited with it because I can travel again and see new places. But, I also feel sad because this time I “might” leave for good, if everything goes well in the new place, I might settle there with my mum and Makuki. One more thing, I will miss my dogs so much They are always in my heart and nothing can change it. I will really really try to get them when I’m finally stable in the new place. Hay, well this is it, I asked for it and here it is and it is getting sooner…Makuki said I should be ready for everything because everything is fast and as of the moment I am enjoying my stay here with my family and dogs I should spend more quality time with them because time will come and I will leave so sad…

Got a plane ticket yesterday and I’m scheduled to travel tomorrow at Manila to have my medical but if my Lola’s doctor (who’s accredited for my medical exam) can give me a schedule this week..I might cancel the trip and have my medical done here. Well, I still want to go to Manila because I want to spend time with Makuki and I want to surprise him with my visit Nah, I hope I can travel tomorrow, ahihi. But, I’m also thinking with all the expenses…we can save more if I’ll have my medical here but the processing would be faster if I’ll have it at Manila, ahihi…

I wanna go to Manila! I miss Makuki so much…ahhuhuhu..I will save my money so I can buy plane tickets and at the same I can do a lil shopping there, but anyways…the important thing that I wanna do there is to spend more time with him before I finally go abroad…ahuhuhu…our anniversary will be on 09.12.08 and I want to spend it with him, ahuhuhu….well, maybe I need to choose between the planned bora getaway this coming September or simply go to Manila and celebrate our 8th anniversary there…I want the Anniversary thingy but I need to explain to my friends why I can’t make it on our Bora trip, I hope they can understand, ahuhuhu…well, I still need to ask permission from my mum if  I can go to Manila to have our celebration …ahuhuhu…i just miss him so much!!!!!!!!!!!

wanna go there…..kahit 3 days lang po….

My mum invited me to join there meeting this afternoon so I will be a bit busier next week. They will have this workshop for their staff and they need my help I said “YES” for the said workshop and hoping that I can earn more money from being a resource person Anyways, I just want to stay at home today so I informed my mum that I won’t be joining them in the meeting but they can count me in for the next week’s workshop.

What am I doing? I was browsing for more affiliates so I can earn more thru my blogs. I need to update my blogs more often so I can receive more offers and opportunities. Well, got bills to pay every month and I need money for it, remember I am not employed…and I need my blogs! ahihi…

Makuki will be coming home from Singapore tonight!!! I hope I can fetched him at the airport but he’s in Manila and I need to buy those pricey airline tickets just to be with him. Hay, LDR relationships It makes me sad but it’s okay…this is just one of the trials in our relationship, we can do it, aja!

Sushi’s sleeping under my mom’s bed and Kiko is resting at the dining room hoping he can get bananas from my Lola who’s having a heartful lunch prepared by our angel, ahihi.

I’ll be out tonight with Kai. We’ll be joining the rock night at CCF church, Tanya has been inviting me to join this event and I didn’t have enough time before….so now is the perfect time to join them!

I was supposed to have my Dental check up because my dentist should replace my braces and a lot of it are dancing on my molars every time I eat any food. After the dental check up will be my 2nd day in my Aero Class but my aunt went home and my Lola needs me here, so I’ll just stay at home…blogging, surfing, eating and sleeping! All my appointments now will be scheduled tomorrow, that means I will be out the whole day! First, I need to go to this Bridal Shop to give my dimensions for my Best friend’s wedding this coming August 16. Then, have my dental check up. Meet my long-time friend, Irene who will be Mrs. Matildo this coming August 08. Lastly, I’ll attend my Aero class with my cousins Well, if I’ll have enough time and energy after the class I might go to the mall to have some groceries

Hay, missing Makuki so much. I am waiting for his call or email now, I hope he’s doing fine at SG. He traveled yesterday but I didn’t receive any call or message from him. Maybe, he’s busy with his meeting there.

I woke up with tears on my eyes. I dreamed of him and I didn’t expect that I could see him in my dreams. I saw him smiling to us while listening to the music of “Afternoon Delight”. Well, I really didn’t care with the music at all because I am just staring at him and wishing to hug him even in my dreams, but I think it’s impossible because my dream ended. I woke up for a while and hoping that I can still see him when I close my eyes but it never happened I just miss him so much, I miss his smile, face and eyes. I hope I had a chance to feel his love and care when he was still alive but I was too young at that moment…I was still a baby at that time. My family told me that he loves me so much because I’m his little girl and I can see it on the photos that my mom compiled in our old albums. Hay, miss you Dad, Pa, Pop….I never got a chance to call you Dad, Pa or Pop…..I wanna see you again tonight in my dreams.

It’s my 14th day here in Manila. All I do here is eat, sleep, play, watch TV and borrowing my cousin’s laptop just to blog. I just finished processing the renewal of my passport yesterday and I am just waiting for it to be delivered on my cousin’s doorsteps. After this, I’ll be processing my license here…my mum suggested that I should finish everything here because it’s faster than in our city.So, I am waiting for my files to be forwarded at PRC Manila and to start process everything. Anyways, I am waiting for davaowordpresser’s arrival here in Manila so we can look for places or pad where he can stay comfortably while being away from home. I miss him so much and I hope the company will finally give him the plane ticket so we can be together again! Hay, a lot of changes this year and we should be ready for everything. Am I ready for the changes? Is he ready? Are we both ready? Hay, these are the questions playing on my mind. I want to spend more time with him at our hometown but I think it’s a bit impossible because he will start working in a busy city this coming July and by that time I might go back to our hometown all alone. I’ll be alone in going to the places where we used to hang out….

Dr, sana dito ka na…ahuhuhu, so we can be together na…ahihihi, cge lang Iang I will wait for you